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PRETTY MUCH EXCITED

2012-01-27T16:54:00.003+08:00

9 down, 3 more to go. Alright, enough of counting down the days till I'm done with my attachment. Well, I just can't help it! Anyways, I've been slacking a lot this few days at work since there's nothing much to be done, and the Lunar New Year mood is still on. Or in short the holiday mood is still on. Thank god it's Friday! I'm already thinking what to do this weekend, and I'm probably rowing off to Bintan on the 18th! Excited much? Oh yes, that's why I can't wait for this three weeks to come fast! Speaking of which, I've already sent my resume to two companies for some admin job, yes office job though I said I can't stand sitting still for hours!, but I've got no choice. My results are not that fabulous so I don't think I'll be continuing my studies. But who knows years to come I'll change my mind? Oh well. Back to my resumes, I really hope I'm going to be called by one of the companies for an interview though I screwed up my Cover Letter already! And you know what, I actually can't believe that I've already sent my resume to a company. LIKE SERIOUSLY. I've never done such a thing for my entire life and I've never been this independent. Applause for myself please? I'm just kidding. So if let's say I'm really called for an interview, I better not screwed it up cause I do need a job cause my dad has already stopped giving me allowances. Sad story huh. But it's not come big fuck company anyways, just a small little tiny winy ones that probably you guys will go on saying, "haaaa, that company as that only?"But it's alright. I still have not gotten the job yet so I can't say much for now. So let's hope everything will goes well so that I won't be a sore loser once I'm done with my attachment on February the 17th!

SAY WHAT SAY WHAT

2012-01-16T17:21:00.002+08:00

Time check: 5.22PM. I can seriously die down here. Amazingly today's one of the most slackest Monday so far as I've only 13 PhotoBook orders and the PhotoFrenz Website is down, which means I'm unable to do the Canvas Posters and the Korean PhotoBook. So, back to my slacky job. I guess I've been refreshing my News Feed on Facebook for tremendous times already, till my eyes nearly pop right now. 35 more minutes to go. What should I talk about?

My weekends was really short as my whole Saturday from morning till dawn on Sunday was filled with Risnah's BBQ Pit. Yes, this girlfriend of mine organized a BBQ Pit for her 21st. Which results to me thinking what should I do for my 21st this year.

Everyone says 21 equals to your key to freedom, but I guess, as a Muslim girl, I doubt so. 21 is the same like any other years, no freedom, nope, cause your parents are still in charge of you. And of course, till you get married, it's your husband's turn then to take care of you. So, freedom much? Of course NOT! But, I don't mind seriously. I don't mind having a conservative Mum who disallow me to do this and that. Yes, I do rebel, every single kid rebel in fact, but, everything depends on the situation. But come to think of it, after a million times of rebelling, you'll ended up getting sick of it, and sometimes your parents simply stop caring. So which one do you prefer? Every single thing in life has got it's pros and cons as usual. But it's all about how you deal with it. I admit as a teen, you just enjoy doing things your OWN way, and not wanting people, correction parents to be exact, to interfere. But come and think again, they went through life before you. True enough, their days and our days are simply not the same, but the main thing is that, they've experienced being a teen before, they did this and that, and that's why they did not want you to follow as they want you to be a better person in the endeavors.

LIKE THIS, LIKE THAT, LIKE A GUY

2012-01-15T20:18:00.004+08:00

January is a month full of ... BLUES. You know it's just a heart wrenching thing looking at your friends hanging out with your friends too, and completely ignore you, not asking you along, don't even bother about you and things like that. Yes, obviously I'm used to it. But come to think about it again, I admit I'm not that selfish, but I don't know why it just upsets me when I see all those. I hate facebook. It leads you to make and BREAK friendships at the same time. You see, let's simply say, many people will eventually found things from facebook, they approached, they fought, they BREAK friendship and it's all because of FACEBOOK. Might as well, don't have facebook right? Or else you'll ended up hurting for knowing this and that happen. Certainly it's not the first time for me, but I choose to just keep my big mouth shut. I hate fighting, I hate arguing cause I don't find the need to. Come and think about it. There's a reason why they never asked you along. Simple. They don't enjoy my company, probably cause I'm not as awesome as them. So, just remain silence, and take a step backward. Yes, it does hurts, but, it's simply better than arguing and hurting yourself even more right? That's why I've always say put your heads high up all the way and ignore every single thing cause at the end of the day, you've got only yourself to hang on to.

Okay, enough of that. Sometimes, there's a reason why you don't enjoy mixing with this company of friends and that. It's not because you like or dislike them. But personally I feel, it's because of the reaction they give towards you. Yes, they're nice to you, they talk to you, they joke around with you, well said they didn't outcast you. But the fact that's not that nice is that they treat you just like one of them. You know I'm soooo used to being treated like a guy, cause these group of guys will forever said I'm like one of them. I seriously don't mind that, but I do mind if you said it loudly in front a group of guys and in front of a stranger. Saying the way you present yourself is completely like a guy, the way you talk, the way you walk and things like that. I just laughed, cause I seriously can't do anything. I cannot be offended by it, cause it's simply the truth. But, I just appreciate it even more if you need not need to shout loudly in front of someone who does not even know me. It's just an embarrassing thing for me.

Oh well, come to think of it, if I were to share to others, they'll ended up saying I think too much, or I care too much. I know I'm not like every single one of you girls, but for sure, I'm still a girl and that's why my feelings and emotions are just like the other girls out there.

FOOOOOOOOOOOD

2012-01-13T23:20:00.003+08:00

The only thing that makes your day better after a long day at work's simply a good meal as well as a great company of friends.

DEPRESSING ENOUGH?

2012-01-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

It's finally a Friday. Let me simply update you, six down, six more to go honey! Obviously I'm very very very excited indeed. Still thinking what should I do after I graduate. Which industry / type of job should I search for? Most probably ... I-can't-think-of-one-right-now. Too much to handle. Meet my Dunman girls yesterday night and it was a lovely catching up time. Everyone's growing up already. And all of us are going to reach adulthood ten years from now. It may seems to be so far away, but time is not that slow indeed.

I'm still a depressed kid. I will still be this way till I'm able to open my mouth and talk, just like the old times.

RESOLUTION ... YES?

2012-01-04T14:42:00.003+08:00

2012. So, how are you adapting to the new year? New year, new you? Or the same back old, "oh it's just another year" mentality. I bet it's the second one, just like me! Here I am, still the same me, nothing changes, nothing is changing, all stuck in the same routine going round and round. So, when it comes to New Years, the first thing that comes to the mind of every single individual is obviously the resolutions! So, what's your New Year Resolution? I've been thinking and thinking what should I achieve, or make it simple, plan to achieve THIS YEAR. And finally, I've decided on this ...

To behave like a girl, act like a lady and think like a woman. Frankly to me, I am already a lady enough. I do act like one, dress like one and behave like one. Why must act like someone you're not? It's soooo easy and comfortable being ME but I just have to brush up a little! What to brush up on? Simple. Start wearing blouses to really look like a lady, but that does not mean you need to giggle and not laugh, sit with your legs cross-legged all the time, flips your hair here and there, and acting cute when you spot someone attractive. So, my resolution is more of my appearance. Shirt and jeans are only allowed to slacking. Wanna bet I can achieve that? HELL NO BUT I'LL TRY!
TO LOSE WEIGHT. Oh come on, I know I've been saying it all year round, yet nothing ever happen right? My weight increases within hours, my waist size increases whenever I need to get new pants / jeans, and my arms already flabby enough. Please don't add any more weight to my body! LOL! Probably, I should simply change my mission to "TO GAIN WEIGHT ALL THE TIME" right? I'M NOT KIDDING. But yes, I'm supposed to change that but not yet! I really need to lose weight soooo bad, but I'm still eating all kinds of junks whenever, wherever! I really envy those group of people whose metabolism is high, as they're able to eat eat eat but will still REMAIN SKINNY. I'm now thinking how to lose weight when I'm already sticking to my three meals per day diet! NOT ENOUGH FOR ME I GUESS?

So, there goes my TWO New Year Resolutions and I'm proud of it! Keep your resolutions simple, and something that you're able to achieve so that every single year you'll able to do it, and not having resolutions for the sake of having it, planning it and than DUMPING IT. Get the idea? With that, keep your heads high up and set your resolutions right and be smart, so that you'll have something to be proud of at the end of the year!

END OF ANOTHER WEEK

2011-12-30T12:27:00.002+08:00

Time do past that fast doesn't it. It's been my fifth week here. Next week's going to be the sixth week. And soon, six more weeks left. How excited am I? I can't wait to freaking get my ass off here despite my kind of slackly yet tiring yet cope-able job. I admit I'm not really a people person but, situations usually allow me to open my mouth and interact with others. True indeed, I don't mingle around. But it's just hard to try mingling with people who can't really accept you and will give you that attitude and tone of voice whenever you talked to them. Been enduring till I don't wish to bother anymore. Totally used to it already. Five weeks of endurance is already long enough for me. I just need to look high up there and keep my head up high. Don't look down, just don't bother. You'll definitely not regret a single thing. I won't judge, I choose not to judge. I choose not to care. Since everything's like that, I choose to be on my own, doing things my own way, cause I'm independent like that. Right. Trying to boost my self esteem much? LOL.

ACT LIKE A GROWN UP

2011-12-26T17:58:00.003+08:00

It's finally a Monday without the blues. We're left with five more days before the start of a new year. Enough of new year resolutions, I wanna do this and that, cause it'll never happen till the end of the year. But one thing for sure, I can't wait for next year. I can't wait for graduation BUT I can wait to start working life. That is something I'm afraid of, I admit. Ever since attachment started, I've been thinking about the REAL world. How people may stab you from the back without you realizing it and you may fall just like that. You'll wonder who are your true friends, and who mix with you just to know your deepest secrets. Oh well, I admit I'm unprepared for that. I'm just like a kid, but the time will come. Better enjoy life as it is right now before all those downfalls.

PUT YOUR HEADS HIGH UP

2011-12-16T12:39:00.003+08:00

Time do past that fast, doesn't it? It's been three weeks already since the day I officially started my attachment. Oh well, life as an intern is full of dullness. It's been ages since I last woke up late on a weekday, enjoying myself till late at night, and my social life is only applicable on Saturdays. And that happens only when I'm meeting my girls. Or else, back to square one. Rot at home, watch TV, time to catch up with some Dramas! How interesting can my life be right? Oh well. How's attachment so far? Been good, except for last week where I've made huge mistakes all around. Being a dispatch here and there, but I still find my job okay as there's nothing for me to stress about. Oh well, one month is almost down. Two more months to go honey. Of course I'm very very excited! I've already pushed FYP right at the back of my mind, still hoping deep down I will be able to pass it. I don't even mind getting a C, cause it's still a pass! I just need to graduate, it's a need and a want! Most of my friends are already thinking and planning out what they're going to do after they graduate(once they're done with attachment by right!), but well, not for me yet. I'm still lost in my own world, not knowing which route and where to head right after my attachment. Who enjoys studying? The smart ones I guess, never me. I like the IDEA of being a student, and studying as your number one priority, but going through the same cycle of studying, memorizing, reading, revising will definitely leads me to laziness. But, it's alright. I still have 9 more weeks to go. Once I'm done with my attachment, I got to face the world like it or not.

LITTLE DID I KNOW

2011-12-02T17:04:00.002+08:00

It's been quite a while since I last blogged. I can still remember vividly I've been blogging about my Final Year Project and how much I suffered due to it. Oh well, time do past that fast right. Cause it's been a week since I last ended my FYP and here I am, in a total new atmosphere, new surrounding at my attachment company. My job is okay, and I'm doing a little bit on Marketing. Any link to what I've been studying? Of course not! I can just die down here if I'm doing something related to programming, design or even networking. So what have I been doing? Simple. Check Emails, make and answer phone calls, make PhotoBooks and things like that. Pretty slack huh? Oh well, it's not that stress free but a little bit busy at times. Somehow, I do thank God for getting this company for my IAP even though I'm still not used with the people here. I guess the job's I'm assigned to do is more important. So, 45 minutes of travelling journey. How awesome can that be? I gave up travelling long journeys to NYP of course. Pretty troublesome, but I still have to wake up at 530AM every weekday, so there's not much difference here. So for now, no whining regarding my company, except the fact that I miss wearing my jeans with TShirts and not some tops. If you want to meet me, like a LADY, do meet me after work. My personality's wayyyy different that usual! Cheers.

HOLLLLLLEEEERRRRR

2011-11-14T11:11:00.001+08:00

It's simply ten more days but I'm still stressed and I'm in need of my happy pills.

STUCK IN THE MIDDLE

2011-11-11T09:29:00.003+08:00

I'm seated down here, right inside my lab, trying to keep my eyes awake while doing my Final Year Project. The thing is that, I know and I'm aware that I'm actually lagging behind. I did my research, I did think how to improve the damn iPad Application but I know it's still not enough. I can't just get a D, okay I still think it's much better compared to an F. I just don't want to repeat this whole thing. I want to get going, and I need to get going. Who want's to stay stuck in this lab till whenever? Attachment probably won't be that harsh on me, perhabs perhabs. Perhabs I need to get going. Anyone whose willing to raise their hands up and help me along? I bet it's gonna be none.

TOO MUCH TO HANDLE

2011-11-01T16:32:00.001+08:00

It's now November baby. Four more weeks to go and everyone's pretty excited already. Oh fyp, I just can't wait to get my ass of you. Too much burden, too mmany things to handle and too much drama going on. I just can't wait for it to end and everything shall end after that.

SEPTEMBER BABY FTW

2011-10-31T17:47:00.000+08:00

SEPTEMBER=IMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

A SATISFIED FEELING

2011-10-30T12:35:00.001+08:00

Shimzz's wedding was indeed a success! And I'm sooo glad to be part of the team. ♥

KNOCK ME DOWN

2011-10-26T15:34:00.003+08:00

I just need some break from my FYP cause it's stressing me all up. Oh programming, why can't you just be my bestest friend for this five weeks only.

SPEAKING OF BEING GOOD

2011-10-23T05:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you just tend to feel like one world world is crashing on you and everyone's attacking you but hey you know what, always remember you're not alone. There's many people out there who may be going through a harder situation compared to yours. Appreciate what's there right in front of your eyes, before it's gone. And always remember, you have your family and friends around you no matter what. And most importantly, be strong. Cause at the end of it, you jut got to believe in yourself.

A NEW CHAPTER

2011-10-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

It's a very old photo but no matter how old our friendship is, I still love her a million. Happy twenty first my dearest Syash. She's indeed, an awesome friend of mine always.

PLAIN SATURDAY

2011-10-22T20:37:00.001+08:00

What a lazy Saturday. Didn't get to meet my babe cause I got to collect my outfit for Shimzz wedding next Saturday.! And I need to lose weight badly cause that tailor made Baju Kurung fits on me like JUST NICE. And I hate it cause I prefer outfits that's pretty loose. Even the tailor said I gain weight pretty fast which results in me looking extremely plump in that Baju Kurung. Excited to see? Wait for next Saturday and you may all laugh your ass off. Idiotic me. So, it's all about accompanying my Mum and I got myself a few tops and finally I got a replacement for my spoilt ear piece. Pretty draggy Saturday, but still, I think it's time for me to have a good sleep tonight.

NOW, WHAT'S LEFT

2011-10-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

It's the end of seventh week of my FYP already and I've been assessed yesterday and I'm afraid of failing it. I'm totally hopeless at programming, and that's why I've been stressing thinking how to solve and improve my E-Magazine. Yes, I admit, the whole world knows I'm lazy, but sometimes it's simply because you're unable to do it, you're not confident of doing it, and you just feel lke giving up. And every single time I feel like giving up, I told myself how dumb can I ever be. It's the final strech now and I've got five more weeks to go. Every Friday shall be a counting day and I need to get a B. But, to come and think of it, can I even pass through a C? I hope so.

WHEN YOU MEET YOUR GIRLS

2011-10-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Meet my happy pills for over five years and still counting. ♥

JUST PLAIN AWESOME

2011-10-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

With good company on a Saturday night, what more can I ask for?

PLAIN SATURDAY

2011-10-15T13:31:00.002+08:00

Just ditched my cousin cause I woke up late today and I have got some chores to be done first. Going to be my past colleagues tonight and it's been ages since I last went out on a Saturday night. Most probably meeting Shimzz and Ikaaa as well after that. Good bunch of people indeed. Been long since I last met them too. I bet I'll only reach home late at night and am having class tomorrow. But still, don't let the fun stop simply due to that. Have a blessed Saturday everyone.

EVERYONE KNOWS THAT

2011-10-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

Blogging is just wayyyy too addictive that's why I've been creating two three blogs at the same time.