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. Friday, January 27, 2012 .

PRETTY MUCH EXCITED

9 down, 3 more to go. Alright, enough of counting down the days till I'm done with my attachment. Well, I just can't help it! Anyways, I've been slacking a lot this few days at work since there's nothing much to be done, and the Lunar New Year mood is still on. Or in short the holiday mood is still on. Thank god it's Friday! I'm already thinking what to do this weekend, and I'm probably rowing off to Bintan on the 18th! Excited much? Oh yes, that's why I can't wait for this three weeks to come fast! Speaking of which, I've already sent my resume to two companies for some admin job, yes office job though I said I can't stand sitting still for hours!, but I've got no choice. My results are not that fabulous so I don't think I'll be continuing my studies. But who knows years to come I'll change my mind? Oh well. Back to my resumes, I really hope I'm going to be called by one of the companies for an interview though I screwed up my Cover Letter already! And you know what, I actually can't believe that I've already sent my resume to a company. LIKE SERIOUSLY. I've never done such a thing for my entire life and I've never been this independent. Applause for myself please? I'm just kidding. So if let's say I'm really called for an interview, I better not screwed it up cause I do need a job cause my dad has already stopped giving me allowances. Sad story huh. But it's not come big fuck company anyways, just a small little tiny winy ones that probably you guys will go on saying, "haaaa, that company as that only?"But it's alright. I still have not gotten the job yet so I can't say much for now. So let's hope everything will goes well so that I won't be a sore loser once I'm done with my attachment on February the 17th!

Sealed and Delivered at 4:54:00 PM

. Monday, January 16, 2012 .

SAY WHAT SAY WHAT

Time check: 5.22PM. I can seriously die down here. Amazingly today's one of the most slackest Monday so far as I've only 13 PhotoBook orders and the PhotoFrenz Website is down, which means I'm unable to do the Canvas Posters and the Korean PhotoBook. So, back to my slacky job. I guess I've been refreshing my News Feed on Facebook for tremendous times already, till my eyes nearly pop right now. 35 more minutes to go. What should I talk about?

My weekends was really short as my whole Saturday from morning till dawn on Sunday was filled with Risnah's BBQ Pit. Yes, this girlfriend of mine organized a BBQ Pit for her 21st. Which results to me thinking what should I do for my 21st this year.

Everyone says 21 equals to your key to freedom, but I guess, as a Muslim girl, I doubt so. 21 is the same like any other years, no freedom, nope, cause your parents are still in charge of you. And of course, till you get married, it's your husband's turn then to take care of you. So, freedom much? Of course NOT! But, I don't mind seriously. I don't mind having a conservative Mum who disallow me to do this and that. Yes, I do rebel, every single kid rebel in fact, but, everything depends on the situation. But come to think of it, after a million times of rebelling, you'll ended up getting sick of it, and sometimes your parents simply stop caring. So which one do you prefer? Every single thing in life has got it's pros and cons as usual. But it's all about how you deal with it. I admit as a teen, you just enjoy doing things your OWN way, and not wanting people, correction parents to be exact, to interfere. But come and think again, they went through life before you. True enough, their days and our days are simply not the same, but the main thing is that, they've experienced being a teen before, they did this and that, and that's why they did not want you to follow as they want you to be a better person in the endeavors.

Sealed and Delivered at 5:21:00 PM

. Sunday, January 15, 2012 .

LIKE THIS, LIKE THAT, LIKE A GUY

January is a month full of ... BLUES. You know it's just a heart wrenching thing looking at your friends hanging out with your friends too, and completely ignore you, not asking you along, don't even bother about you and things like that. Yes, obviously I'm used to it. But come to think about it again, I admit I'm not that selfish, but I don't know why it just upsets me when I see all those. I hate facebook. It leads you to make and BREAK friendships at the same time. You see, let's simply say, many people will eventually found things from facebook, they approached, they fought, they BREAK friendship and it's all because of FACEBOOK. Might as well, don't have facebook right? Or else you'll ended up hurting for knowing this and that happen. Certainly it's not the first time for me, but I choose to just keep my big mouth shut. I hate fighting, I hate arguing cause I don't find the need to. Come and think about it. There's a reason why they never asked you along. Simple. They don't enjoy my company, probably cause I'm not as awesome as them. So, just remain silence, and take a step backward. Yes, it does hurts, but, it's simply better than arguing and hurting yourself even more right? That's why I've always say put your heads high up all the way and ignore every single thing cause at the end of the day, you've got only yourself to hang on to.

Okay, enough of that. Sometimes, there's a reason why you don't enjoy mixing with this company of friends and that. It's not because you like or dislike them. But personally I feel, it's because of the reaction they give towards you. Yes, they're nice to you, they talk to you, they joke around with you, well said they didn't outcast you. But the fact that's not that nice is that they treat you just like one of them. You know I'm soooo used to being treated like a guy, cause these group of guys will forever said I'm like one of them. I seriously don't mind that, but I do mind if you said it loudly in front a group of guys and in front of a stranger. Saying the way you present yourself is completely like a guy, the way you talk, the way you walk and things like that. I just laughed, cause I seriously can't do anything. I cannot be offended by it, cause it's simply the truth. But, I just appreciate it even more if you need not need to shout loudly in front of someone who does not even know me. It's just an embarrassing thing for me.

Oh well, come to think of it, if I were to share to others, they'll ended up saying I think too much, or I care too much. I know I'm not like every single one of you girls, but for sure, I'm still a girl and that's why my feelings and emotions are just like the other girls out there.

Sealed and Delivered at 8:18:00 PM

. Friday, January 13, 2012 .

FOOOOOOOOOOOD

The only thing that makes your day better after a long day at work's simply a good meal as well as a great company of friends.

Sealed and Delivered at 11:20:00 PM

. Friday, January 6, 2012 .

DEPRESSING ENOUGH?

It's finally a Friday. Let me simply update you, six down, six more to go honey! Obviously I'm very very very excited indeed. Still thinking what should I do after I graduate. Which industry / type of job should I search for? Most probably ... I-can't-think-of-one-right-now. Too much to handle. Meet my Dunman girls yesterday night and it was a lovely catching up time. Everyone's growing up already. And all of us are going to reach adulthood ten years from now. It may seems to be so far away, but time is not that slow indeed.

I'm still a depressed kid. I will still be this way till I'm able to open my mouth and talk, just like the old times.

Sealed and Delivered at 12:47:00 PM

. Wednesday, January 4, 2012 .

RESOLUTION ... YES?

2012. So, how are you adapting to the new year? New year, new you? Or the same back old, "oh it's just another year" mentality. I bet it's the second one, just like me! Here I am, still the same me, nothing changes, nothing is changing, all stuck in the same routine going round and round. So, when it comes to New Years, the first thing that comes to the mind of every single individual is obviously the resolutions! So, what's your New Year Resolution? I've been thinking and thinking what should I achieve, or make it simple, plan to achieve THIS YEAR. And finally, I've decided on this ...

To behave like a girl, act like a lady and think like a woman. Frankly to me, I am already a lady enough. I do act like one, dress like one and behave like one. Why must act like someone you're not? It's soooo easy and comfortable being ME but I just have to brush up a little! What to brush up on? Simple. Start wearing blouses to really look like a lady, but that does not mean you need to giggle and not laugh, sit with your legs cross-legged all the time, flips your hair here and there, and acting cute when you spot someone attractive. So, my resolution is more of my appearance. Shirt and jeans are only allowed to slacking. Wanna bet I can achieve that? HELL NO BUT I'LL TRY!
TO LOSE WEIGHT. Oh come on, I know I've been saying it all year round, yet nothing ever happen right? My weight increases within hours, my waist size increases whenever I need to get new pants / jeans, and my arms already flabby enough. Please don't add any more weight to my body! LOL! Probably, I should simply change my mission to "TO GAIN WEIGHT ALL THE TIME" right? I'M NOT KIDDING. But yes, I'm supposed to change that but not yet! I really need to lose weight soooo bad, but I'm still eating all kinds of junks whenever, wherever! I really envy those group of people whose metabolism is high, as they're able to eat eat eat but will still REMAIN SKINNY. I'm now thinking how to lose weight when I'm already sticking to my three meals per day diet! NOT ENOUGH FOR ME I GUESS?

So, there goes my TWO New Year Resolutions and I'm proud of it! Keep your resolutions simple, and something that you're able to achieve so that every single year you'll able to do it, and not having resolutions for the sake of having it, planning it and than DUMPING IT. Get the idea? With that, keep your heads high up and set your resolutions right and be smart, so that you'll have something to be proud of at the end of the year!

Sealed and Delivered at 2:42:00 PM